Alban's Blog

The Week After

ovation after world premierI promise I really wanted to write my freshest memories from the world premier of Unsuk Chins Celloconcerto – and what happened? Nada, niente, nothing but hot air! Laziest cellist in the world has nothing to say anymore, even though there were enough emotions flowing I would have liked to capture in the aftermath. Big difference: normally I am alone after a performance, and the trip back home or to the next engagement has lots of empty time which I often fill with writing e-mails and blog. This time my little family came over to London to hear what all the work in Puerto Rico had been about. Besides that they love the Proms and didn’t want to miss my second one within 12 months (I got to play Prokofiev’s Sinfonia Concertante August 2008 after the Chin premier got postponed). But with my son and wife around I didn’t have a free second afterwards, especially since we had planned a mini-trip to Italy and Croatia right after the concert.

Long story for a cheap excuse for waiting more than a week to write about one of the scariest concerts of my life: performing a piece I had never chin concerto world premierheard before, more difficult than anything I have done before, with rehearsals four days prior (which meant no real “routine” either with help of an extended rehearsal period, in the biggest “arena” in the world, the Royal Albert Hall, and, besides the obligatory live radio and internet broadcast a live TV one (also a first for me). Lucky enough I was so nervous for just getting the piece right that I completely forgot the stakes during the performance. Trying to bring the many musical layers out while not getting lost I had no energy to actually worry about neither the expectation of the promers standing right in front of me nor the pressure of a live-tv thingy which normally would have driven me crazy.

How did the performance finally come out? To be honest, I felt best about the first and third movement (which are also musically the deeper and more beautiful once) – in the quick ones (No.2 and 4) I admit of not having been as much on top of it as I liked; I am fully aware of that I shouldn’t even mention anything like that, but what is the sense of writing in a kind-of-diary-blog how brilliant everything is if this wasn’t true? Who would lie to his own diary? To look good? I am a louzy lier, and if my intention is indeed to bring a bit more honesty and truthfulness to the presentation of classical music by writing rather intimately, I guess I should not hide my short-comings. Well, normally you wouldn’t be able to hear wrong notes without following the score, and I assure you, I played 95% what I was supposed to play, just one for me crucial place, about 30 seconds long, I had a blackout and I panicked.

Probably not even a minute into the last movement I missed an empty bar, realized it immediately, but since the pulse and the speed were very high and because of the constantly changing metrum there was nothing The flageoletts of the Chin Concertoto hold on to, I had to give up on my request to bring this in my opinion highly effective and beautiful sequence to its full potential and started to fill the gap until I knew, about 30 seconds and probably 40 bars later, were I had to arrive with my big g-sharp (what else, the concerto grows out of a g-sharp, there it came to my rescue) entrance note, end of a nightmarish struggle of not embarrassing myself and my poor son for having stopped in the middle of a life performance. Yes, I could have used my part, but I think I might have gotten lost as well, especially since it was no memory slip but I fell off the train and didn’t manage to hop on at the exact right place.

You might not believe me, but I was deeply ashamed, actually very angry at myself for having missed the opportunity of a perfect performance, and even Unsuk’s assurance that she was more than happy with the result didn’t help to sooth my own disappointment in myself. Ilan Volkov, who led the really brilliantly playing orchestra and being a great partner in crime, promised me that it was no problem and that the overall performance was so convincing that this little mishap didn’t matter, but it took until now that I was cross with myself. I am just lucky that I am not a Formula 1 driver, who, if loosing concentration for a tenth of a second, could get himself killed – I just missed a couple of notes, and maybe it even added to the excitment; one day I will look at the DVD and pee my pants in retrospective re-living this half-minute of nightmarish fear…

The time in Italy and Croatia was absolutely lovely, beautiful little family holiday. We flew first to Napoli, visited the Madre Museum, in which my sister Pamina had organised an exhibition about an Italian painter, and drove right after to San Giovanni Rotondo, where my dear catholic wife wanted to see Padre Pio, a saint, who, in order to show the world this miracle, had been taken 40 years after his death out of his grave; amazingly enough this man (born the same date like me, just 82 years before me) was in perfect shape, no decomposition whatsoever. Extraordinary, even though for me, at the end of the day, what matters is the fact that he must have been a very special man, helping people and trying to make the world a better place, never mind if he had was saint, semi-saint or just another ordinary “good man”. He seemed a bit like the male Mother Theresa, very modest, hard-working and helping the life of many other people – didn’t care much about being famous, just doing “his thing”.

After this we drove along the coast towards Bari, took the ferry to Dubrovnik, stayed the a couple of days before driving up the road along the Adriatic Sea towards Split and flew home. For all these who haven’t been to Croatia yet: this is a wonderful, gorgeous country – not cheap, but to see a medieval city like Dubrovnik more or less untouched since 600 years is quite breath-taking. And the road up to Split, winding along the mountains with full view of the deep colours of the sea is something I’ll never forget. Janos and me took some long swims in the pool as well as some daring jumps of the cliffs into the sea, but as much as we enjoy being back home, we miss the colours and the smells of that paradisial place of the world. Definitely a nice reward after all that work I put into the Chin Concerto!

Comments

  • David Nice

    Greetings, Alban – so sorry I wasn’t in the UK when you played the Chin, after all that talk about having to catch your next London concert. We all respect your tremendous candour, that’s what makes this blog so unique.

    Pamina – what a lovely name, and knowing your father’s provenance, it’s obvious why. Were you called Alban after Berg?

    Well, looking forward to your next Wigmore date (a fascinating programme, I dimly seem to remember).

    All best,

    David

    Reply
  • Alban

    Hello David,
    too bad we didn’t connect – but there will always be a next time (hopefully)…
    Yes, Pamina is my third sister, the other names are similarily “rare”: Manon, Cosima, Pamina and Darius (the last of us five is a boy, yes). And yes, I guess Alban after Alban Berg, Manon after “in memory of an angel” Manon Gropius (for whom Alban wrote the violinconcerto), Cosima not really for the person C.Wagner, but they loved the name (and she is a lovely woman, just gave birth to her third child a couple of hours ago!!), and Pamina obviously Magic Flute (my mother sang that aria “Ach, ich fühl’s, es ist entschwunden” so beautifully, it still makes me cry if I think of it) – Darius for Darius Milhaud.
    Best wishes from windy Berlin,
    Alban

    Reply
  • Robert

    I couldn’t make it to the Albert Hall so heard it live on TV. It came over beautifully and the effect was stunning. NO WAY I’d have noticed your mistakes! Nice interview at the end. Congratulations, and please come back and play it again soon when I’ll be sure to be there in person.

    Reply
  • Andrea

    Hello, Mr. Gerhardt! I have just checked your schedule and I see that you are performing the Shostakovich 1 in Manila in September! To hear this live would be a dream come true for me. 😀 I I will be watching both nights, I love the Beethoven sonata in A. I can not wait!

    All the best to you!

    Reply
  • Rudi De Groote

    Hi Alban…
    I was principal cello for your Chin performance… and if I may say so, you are an inspiration and your performance was just fantastic. I watched it afterwards and it was really interesting to hear the full effect and the gorgeous timbres and crazy rhythms that were coming through.. What a piece!! Anyway, Thanks very much for your performance….

    Best wishes..

    Rudi

    Reply
  • Guido

    Have to say, that I think that premiere, and your performance has been the highlight of the PROMS thus far – an extraordinarily beautiful work, and I agree that the strengths of it lie in its first and third movements. those harmonics in the slow movement both in the solo part and accompaniment are unprecedented in the cello literature I think and quite ravishing in effect. I don’t think I’ve ever seen such assured or virtuosic playing as in the faster sections – astonishing stuff. I wouldn’t worry about the memory slip – the overall impression was a great one, the absolute silence of the audience for over 20 seconds (!) after the final note a testimony to this. So sad that its so hard, I would have loved to have given it a go at some point, but I can’t see myself ever being able to play it realistically.

    Cheers and congratulations!
    Guido

    Reply
  • Wess

    Thanks again for this site. You have no idea how inspirational it is. Wish i could have heard the performance – well done anyway.

    Regards
    Wess

    Reply
  • David Nice

    Seems characteristic that you haven’t so far trumpeted the Prokofiev disc, which has been out for quite some time now and garnered ecstatic reviews – waiting for my copy in some impatience, so hope to catch up on that and the Chin some time soon.

    Reply
  • ivan rosenfeld span

    Alban I would like to be in contact with you, but I don´t know where. Ivan

    Reply

Leave a Reply to Wess Cancel reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *